Sunday, September 14, 2014
Its been a long time since I wrote on this blog ....
30 years of my life have just pass like that .... Recently there is so many event that is happening !
First and foremost my best friend have got married and entrusting this big day in our hand . He really trusted me, which I don't even trust myself that I will do a good job. Integrity is really something that is intangible ... I should be happy that he trusted me rather than feeling stress and not trusting myself. I think confident is a thing that i am lacking off. Seriously seeing my best friend for 17 years getting married I am really happy but on that day my stress really overwhelm the happiness. But I must say his vow is really touching and really appreciate that he mention me in his speech .
Now the marathon have started .... after my best friend got married and more to come !! And my nagging from family is starting again....
Embarking on my new career journey was very stressful as most people did not agree me of doing .. and now i feel the stress but the same time the challenge and fulfillment makes me happy . But money and stability is another big question mark.. .
Today is the start of my thirties ...
When i was much younger i just want to get married before thirties and have a simple family if possible to start my own small business...
Question to myself age of 30 .... what have you done ? what are you going to do ?What's your plan for future ?
A simple guy simple dream wants a simple life with sophisticated thinking ... with a sophisticated family and in a sophisticated industry !!! Am i simple or sophisticated ?!?
Posted at 9/14/2014 1:17:29 am by LWL
Monday, August 19, 2013
Fighting Hard.... but no results !!!
Finally I took the courage to go against the " current" this time... Sick of hearing people telling me how good is accounting blah blah blah.....
I really hate accounting and want to move on to something really different !! So in my mind was insurance or real estate . Insurance is stable but ... is kind of hard to sell what u dont believe in ?!? Is just like "con-ing" people to buy and need to tap on your own network. As of real estate people look for your service and you help them.
With this decision it make some of my family members upset and keep nagging and nagging they are no supportive enough ~!! and i find them .... very old fashion .
Why must I do what I studied ? All the while I wanted to give up on accounting but... with their nagging I carried on till today ~~! finally I really got piss off with the job ... and do what i feel i want.
But seems that someone up there is not helping :( failed so many times and I still cant pass to qualified to be a Real Estate Agent.
Now damn lost .... looking back into accounting again :( and will continue taking my exam and get nagging.
Just to bad this is life and reality cause I dont have a golden spoon in my mouth so i have to make one my own !
Posted at 8/19/2013 10:18:08 pm by LWL
Friday, October 26, 2012
Life like a Roller Coaster ....
12/10/2012 Friday ...
Morning I was What's App-ng my friend about her baby and Tml her baby full month which I was invtied. In the afternoon my 3rd uncle called me telling me that my granny pluse was weak ... As usual I have to spread the massage to the rest ... ( I thought was just normal....)
Evening my 3rd uncle called me again .... I stared at the phone and stone before picking up (Thinking what happen....My heart sunk) My sixth sense was right my granny could not make it ... I started calling everyone...
After calling everyoneI left my work place and was stuck in the jam on my way there .... In my mind thinking am I able to see her ....
When I reached saw her lying on the bed ... eyes closed and gasping for air ~!! I tried calling her and asking her to hold on for the rest ... She did not open her eyes but I saw tears at her side of the eye... Slowly, her mouth stated to stop for a while and my heart stop too.. And it started gasping for air again .....Slowly it stop totally ....
Posted at 10/26/2012 12:13:55 pm by LWL
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Whatever you do ... do the best !!
Every time when I do somthing I will try to do the best, that why every time my brain keep thinking how to improve and solve the problem . Which is very tiring~!!
Like when I like a gal I will go all out try to get her and won't have another gal in my heart . Which always end up scaring the gal off... If I know her very long and slowly will become friends and I will have no intention to chase her at all...
Haiz ... What to do ?
Posted at 7/10/2012 10:45:07 pm by LWL
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Singapore Total Defence 5 pillars : Military , Civil, Economic , Social and Psychological defence
But as we all know resources are limited is there any defence that we will forgo in order to spent more on one ?
I personally feel that Sigapore is focusing too much on the Economic defence and giving up on Social defence ... Having the casino is good cause income and toursim increased, BUT with these we have forgo our Social defence more crimes and vices are happening here . Will Singapore still remian as a safe country ?
Recently felt very disturb ... heard of story gals sleeping around have ONS and underage Singaporean prostitute . What are these gal thinking about ?
I thought underage prostitue only happen in undevelop country or is just that I am too naive ? Maybe Singapore is still consider a young nationa and there is more problem out there that we have not face ?
Why is the traditional vaules are ?
Posted at 4/19/2012 1:40:42 am by LWL
Friday, March 30, 2012
Someone once told me " Charity start from home ~!! "
What do you think ?
I know there are many people who are worst off than us , so why should we help our own family first ? BUT family are the closest people to us . If your own family member you can help , or dont want to help I dont think you will help others.
Seriously, I was very navie last time when there is disasters in overseas I will donate money and try to play my part .... Slowly, report came out there too much donation flow in till the government do not know how to distribute it and some even misuse it .
I got this plan in mind if I am really very rich ~!! Is to combine orphanage with old folks home, so that they will have a family feel and the kids will learn the right values and know how to apperciate the old people and give back to the society someday .
I always believe in education of kids and teaching them the right values, as kids is our future . Is sad to say that kids has lost the traditional family values. I know friends are important but the blood that flow in you is link to your family member not friends.
But what if your family members do not worth your help ? What if your family members are doing bad things ? Will you still treasure them or help them ?
Posted at 3/30/2012 3:22:08 pm by LWL
Monday, November 14, 2011
We are all artist of our own life ....
Our parents provide us with the drawing material, some people has more some people has less.....
Friends and love ones provide us with ideals ... how your drawing should be like ...
End of the day is up to you how you going to paint you own life ...
Posted at 11/14/2011 10:53:11 pm by LWL
Sunday, October 30, 2011
If love is base just on feeling, than will it die off ? Buy lots of expensive gifts that your girlfriend wants is that love or treating her nice and buy what she needs is love ?
I believe that if love is just base on feeling ... it will die off one day or u will fall in love with many others !!! I seen many example of love die off and the party falls for another party and broke of with thier partners and regerted. In love there must be a commitment and responsibility in it. Therefore is good to know the character of your partners.
My favourite line recently" would like a guy who shares the heart with many others or give u all his heart ? What if the whole heart is less than part of the heart ?"
Seriously sometimes treating someone nice or too nice they get the wrong intention, i also dont know. Good intention might turn bad .... Example you give way for a gal to the left of the escalator end up u too close to her she stare at u ...
My friend always tell me first impression is very important, change my dressing . Some ppl says be yourself when you go out with gals ... Hmm contradict~! i know la dressing is a small thing. Once some one ask me why i dont wear shirt when during weekends? Firstly I afarid too hot, secondly is that I wearing shirt for work and i just want to dress down and wear LKK ~!! I know excuse excuse ... see that why u no gf !!
Major problem now is MONEY ~!!! Lets say if i got gf and she say she want to settle down NOW ~!! I cant.... I am earning not enough to give my partner a good lifestyle and still can save up for marriage. Ya i know not all gals like that, but i dont want my gf to suffer also ....
I am have the old traditional thinking that the guy should bring the bread home and gal whole feed the kids.... BUT is it possible in the current society ? A lot people divorce is because of financial issues too ...
Posted at 10/30/2011 1:16:30 am by LWL
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
From young my world is a very dull world .... I always believe I must work hard and fill it with colour ... therefore I have very high expectation for myself. I try to make it colourful....
When young i always love to hang around with my grandparents, uncle and cousin ... today i realized i trying to borrow thier family happiness to fill my world with colour ... I plan my route ... which a very tradition way, study , work hard earn money and have happy family plus taking care of my dad... I am very emotional cause when i was young i lost someone who everyone think is a "pest" but is a treasure.... I lost my mum... thats why treasure everyone near me inculding my friends..... *thats why my friends say jokingly no worth be my friend cause i have too many friends* In a all guys family i dont know how to chase girl or sweet talk . No advise from anyone ....
So when studying i told myself i will not have a relationship cause i want to excel... i choose accounts rather than design cause i think i need more pratical and more money...
Recent years ..... dreams and hope burst ~!! First dad did not want me ... Job sucks ... Gal I love most break my up ~! I guess i do not know how to love .... but i am sure i can care for her and wont hurt her ....
I have learn alot recent years .. i guess i was to naive, childish and gullible leaving in my fairy tale land ....the world is not as beautiful as you think ~!!
Time to grow up wei long time to grow up ... you need to strong to carry on the rest of your journey ~!!!
Posted at 8/17/2011 11:49:58 pm by LWL
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Which would you choose ... putting all egg in one basket or put all egg in different basket ?
If you put all egg in one basket ... u got it the repayment will be very great .....
If you put all egg in different basket your risk is lower.... SO ?? Which will you choose ?
For me i always put all my egg in one basket ... and the risk is always high and always get bad damages....
If i want to put all my egg is different basket i do not have enough resources to do that ....
So begger can choose ... u want to choose dont be a begger ~!!!!
Posted at 6/19/2011 12:29:59 am by LWL